Yes I do look slightly deranged in the video so you might want to close your eyes and simply listen!!!

So you know - it goes
Breath focus : Inh 5 - hold 7 - exh 8 counts ( count quickly if need be!)
Smile for at least 20 seconds
Inhale and then exhale with a 'ha ha ha'...

Then I hope you're laughing!!! Maybe at me!!....

ALS ice bucket …. remember that challenge!??!

ALS is a rare, lethal disease where motor nerve cells in the brain and the spinal cord are damaged and killed by the body's glial cells, leading to atrophy, paralysis, and eventually death from respiratory failure.   After the famed "ice bucket challenge" helped raise money to research a cure, Israeli scientists at Ben-Gurion University found a way to stop the increased activity of glial cells, restoring the nervous system's immune defenses and increasing life expectancy, The Times of Israel reported.   “This could also have major implications on the life expectancy of other neurodegenerative disease patients with Alzheimer’s and Parkinson’s,” Dr. Ora Horovitz, senior vice president of business development at BGN Technologies, the university’s technology transfer company, told The Times of Israel. “Our new drug candidate may prove effective in boosting the self-cleansing mechanism of the human brain, thereby improving the lives of millions of people.”



Operation Pets Alive:

When a hurricane like Harvey devastates a city, it's not just people that are affected. Pets and rescue animals find themselves stranded as shelters become overcrowded or refuse to allow animals in.  Southwest Airlines stepped in to rescue more than 60 animals from overcrowded shelters in an effort they called "Operation Pets Alive!” A Southwest flight transported the furry passengers from Houston to San Diego, where they found new homes through the Helen Woodward Animal Center.

When disaster strikes, it's comforting to know that all those affected will be taken care of, humans and animals alike.



We Dine Together:

Students at Boca Raton Community High School in Florida wanted to make sure that no one has to eat lunch alone or feel like they don't have anyone to talk to. They founded We Dine Together, a group where members spend their lunch period with a different person every day.  The simple act of sitting down next to someone eating lunch by themselves and starting up a conversation benefits everyone.

“The club has introduced me to so many different people that I didn’t know before,” We Dine Together member Nathaniel Hopwood told People. “I’ve definitely gained so much doing this — it’s cool to have such a diverse group coming together to share lunch and stories about their lives.”



Cookie Delivery:

Mark Chalifoux was accidentally added to a family's group chat as they discussed sending care packages to "Christian" (name changed to protect his privacy), a relative of theirs serving in the military.  Instead of replying "wrong number" and forgetting about it, Chalifoux started a GoFundMe page to raise money to buy cookies for Christian and his unit. The silly but heartfelt campaign gained momentum as it was shared by celebrities on Facebook and picked up by news outlets. A local Girl Scouts troop even donated cookies of their own.  Chalifoux raised enough money to send 40 pounds of cookies, plus a second shipment of essentials like toiletries and more nutritious non-perishable snacks, to the soldier. He's still receiving their group text messages.



Wedding dinner for the Homeless

Sarah Cummins called off her wedding and couldn't refund the $30,000 she had put into planning it. Instead of letting the hall rental, decorations, and food go to waste, she invited a local homeless shelter to enjoy the spread instead of her wedding guests.  Cummins told the Indy Star that she wanted to make the best of a difficult situation.

"I will at least have some kind of happy memory to pull from," she said. "I wanted to make sure it would be the perfect wedding.”


Thanks for smiling and spreading joy..!!
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BUT BUT BUT.... YUP ISOLATING THE BUTT.....

Squats are a movement pattern we do EVERY DAY, yet one that I often find is not done optimally...

This is my attempt at firing up the things you need to have on (isolate) and bring awareness to and then take that to standing to complete the ultimate squat...

Be prepared to touch your butt...

As always please ask anything via the form below, or come see me at www.themovingbodygroup.com/
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Thanks...
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I'll start a video of one of my adventures from 2012 - a bungee jump I did in 2012...You'll understand why I shared this as you continue to read....

Do we take our lives for granted? The journeys we’ve been on, things we’ve seen, places we’ve visited, stories we’ve heard and things we’ve done just are what we’ve done and not worth sharing?  

Or are we worried about sharing, like Kal (you'll read  about him here) - concern that people aren’t interested... 

Talking to my client the other morning, she said she had written down the highlights of her 2017, I had done similar for myself,  but I am now going to put together some paper (I have lots of recycled paper to use…) and start to write life highlights, in whatever order and not just the highlights, the low bits too. The reminder of what we’ve been through and come out of the other side and the lesson learnt. It’s not going to be in depth, just one liners (instagram style!!), a reminder for me about my life, and stories I have to share….  

If any one wants some of the paper (in Singapore) send me a message and I’ll get some to you - my gift to you.
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My take home of the weekend I've written about below, is to never under estimate what you’ve experienced in life, how it can have an impact unknown and to listen to others when they tell their stories you’ll be amazed at what you find out and what you are reminded of about your own life.…

Life is one big adventure....

​As I sit to write this I feel very grateful for the weekend I had and the people I spent time with. I had an adventure of my own listening to stories of others’ lives, hearing about places I’ve never been and maybe won’t (or maybe I will.....) and learning of races and people that I would never have come into my radar… Oh and hearing a language that is almost non-existent here in Singapore!

We all have stories, and they don’t need to be huge trips to unseen lands, wandering through the wilderness, our lives are our stories and all experiences are lessons to be told and shared.

The older I’m getting the more I appreciate the older generations who have been through some of the biggest changes in innovation, technology, the way we live and what is now accessible to us all.  Things we take for granted.  Hell even I remember when we got a cordless phone at home, we had to stay within a certain range of the base but still we could walk about!!!... Now hand phones are a thing most of us in the developed world have as if they are part of our anatomy.

We can go to places and see things that once we could only see in the pages of books.  I appreciate we may not all be going on these adventures, which is why it is so awesome to know people who have.  They inspire me to step outside my comfort zone, consider possibilities and go for things I might otherwise not...

I’d like to share with you here 3 stories from the last few days..

Helping Joy 

My adventure was volunteering with Helping Joy (link above) - a group who go to HDBs delivering food and helping the elderly to keep their places keen.  It was an eye opener for me to see how others live and to see the response they have when we showed up!

One lady stole my heart,  I have no idea what she was talking about - she was speaking an old dialect that hardly exists now. but it was just translatable by the others.  There was an energy about her and a glint in her eye that I knew she had had stories through her life.  I could imagine how stunning she was and possibly not a woman to be messed with!

She is 97 (she thinks) - she held up her fingers to say so.  She walked along with a cane, with typical old style Asian bow legs, not sure how many teeth she had left and her eyesight was failing her.  But she had an inner fire and she said she was okay to go and leave this world but it wasn’t her time yet and she knew it…

I asked if it was okay to take a picture with her - ‘as long as no black magic…’

Her leaving advise to us :
                                                    ‘Be nice, don’t say bad things about others’.
She rocked…

There was also a young girl who lived with her mum and sister, their dad had not long passed away.  She had a strap around her ankle and I could totally relate to that as mine was still sore from falling.  It didn't stop her liveliness though and she bounded away to return with her mushrooms! 

She's growing them in a bag and what's so cool is that so am I!! My friend Balan is the owner of Herb In a Cup and he'd given me some mushrooms to grow....  Amazing to watch them as they grow really fast. 

​I showed the girl my photo, it was super cool to be able to bond with her over our mushrooms!!!
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Peter sent me heaps of photos and it was hard to narrow it down so here's quite a few he took....

Kal....

Sunday brought another dinner and more fascinating conversation with my buddy Roger and Kal, a 78 year old explorer in the throes of writing a book about the 2 sides to Papua New Guinea.  (Did you know there were 2 sides!!)…He has had some adventures and trips and has stories are not just about those but about his life in general.  We were sitting encouraging him to write his stories down (which is not what his book is about) - and he was like ‘yeah but my stories are not that interesting to others’….

This guy is fascinating, not just with his life stories but his views on life, and I've loved chatting to him in the 4 times I have now met him.  He listens, he contemplates, he choses his words wisely.  He has a quietness about him and an energy that resonates out far.   

When Kal tells his stories it’s like listening to a much loved, patient grand parent; there’s no patronising tone because you don't know something, his voice is soft and gentle and he laughs at his own jokes.  It is so easy to listen to him, although I did want to interrupt a few times as I got so excited by what he was saying!!!… But he’s not interesting….!!!???!

His words of ‘not interesting’ struck such a chord in me as that’s what I say about myself and things I’ve done in life.....  

Here's some more stuff about him:  www.baliadvertiser.biz/kal_muller/  it was written in 2014 still gives you an idea behind the man!!.  He was also the first white man to do the land dive in the New Hebrides (now Vanuatu) and was in the National Geographic article on bungee jumping in 1970 ( I wasn't even born...) - hence me sharing my bungee.!!

As I said at the start, we are all amazing people, whatever and wherever our life has taken us.  

What would life be like if we viewed every day as an adventure to be had, and every person as a book to be opened, and the world around us as our playground.....?

What would life look like...?  I think I might try this way a while longer....

Please share you adventures and if you want some paper contact below
Thanks, happy adventuring.....
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Following on from a movement video on spine movement I posted a few weeks ago, a comment was made that it seemed to be for only more advanced movers - and a very fair point.

So this video is to help you understand how to move the spine, predominantly the upper back (thoracic) - which is the area that gets the stiffest in most bodies.  That stiffness is due to various reasons, the 'core' not doing its job efficiently, lack of movement generally, an over-mobile neck (yes it exists...) - it can be all or a mixture..

The main thing is we get that area moving, the benefits are HUGE:

easier to breathe
less lower back pain
less shoulder issues
better overall posture which affects digestion, circulation etc..
higher energy levels
improved sports performance (and I mean for hobbies)

There are more benefits, but the feeling of overall well being a free spine gives is the greatest in my mind.

I've done my best on the video to say how and where to move, hence the new tattoo, and as with other videos I see my differences left to right.  You'll probably find one side will feel easier too -just notice it,  accept it and don't force it to go where it doesn't want to yet.....

If you feel any pain, tingles, numbness please stop - if this is a regular occurrence please see someone.!

Comments and feedback and questions are welcome below... 
Thanks and happy unwinding!!

It takes the time it takes…..

https://www.ted.com/talks/adam_grant_the_surprising_habits_of_original_thinkers?referrer=playlist-talks_for_procrastinators&language=en#t-263194

Great Ted talk to go with this blog

I’ve been on a wee journey the last few years, and I don’t mean round the world!!

It’s been a journey into self, one that has lead to some discoveries - some not so good ones, some great ones and then just some…..

It has been an adventure, filled with tears and laugher, highs and lows, numerous books read, videos watched, coaching calls, feedback, conversations and blogging (nearly 4 years I’ve blogged on and off !!!.).

Overall it’s been great - I got lost a few times, went down some slippery slopes that I had to clamber back from, been flying high and happy as can be, only to come crashing down!! 

I have stayed somewhere in the middle too which to be honest can be a tad boring!  AHA which is why we (I) create some drama to spice things up a bit….
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I can’t speak for anyone else, but for me - some things and realisations are fast and I’m like yeah I got it, I’m with the program.  Other things, well they take longer - I read something and it reminds of what was said a while ago and another penny drops.  Now I don’t know how many pennies there are to be dropped - but what I do know is that I keep moving forward.  There might be an occasional blip in the road - but hey that’s FAB, it means I can learn and guess what - keep moving forward….

After finishing reading “The Subtle art of not giving a f*&k” which I found a highly engrossing book, I realised I cared too much about things that actually don’t matter that much to me! Doh.  As I read I reflected on what was important to me - what I do give a f*&’ about and well also what I don’t. 
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Now had I read the book a few years ago I might not have gone “AHA” - who knows, but I do believe the lessons come to us and sink in when we are ready - trying to rush someone to get there is not about them but about the one doing the rushing.

I re-read some things I’d written a while ago, about life and what I’d ultimately like and the Universe really is sending me clear messages for it.  I’ve just sort of ignored, put it to one side, swept it under the carpet and then it pops back up again.

In the past I truly don’t believe I was ready to move on with it, lack of belief in self. not having the support system, being scared - whatever the reason I put it to the side.  But it doesn't mean it’s not there floating around me..

Does that make sense to anyone out there??

Sometimes yes you do just have to jump in and go for it, other times a bit more planning and thought is required!  I’ve rushed many things in my life and still do, I’m learning what things are good to and what isn’t….

A big thank you to all those who have helped me along the way (whether they rushed me or not!!!), to the lessons I have re-learnt in new ways, to mistakes I’ve repeated, and to my ability to keep moving forward. 

It will take the time it takes and along the way I’m enjoying my round the world journey!!!..

How’s your journey been??



PS the photo can be bought if you like it from LisaSJonesSociety6

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If you follow my instagram ( lisasjonesmove ) you’ll know that I missed the bottom step in my apartment block and went over on my right ankle…  If you don’t follow my IG (and you’re on it) - follow me!!!!….
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Anyway, I missed the step, my ankle turned in on its outside edge and I have some nice bruising but not as bad as it could have been as I knew what to do to help it recover. After it happened, you know that ‘omg moment’ and breath has left all your body feeling???  Yeah I had that and wanted to double over and sit down and not move.  But I didn’t; I continued to move on it for the day and then when I did sit down I put some ice on, put it in the air, then compressed it and kept wiggling it about…

It seems counterintuitive to keep moving it, but I’ve found when I did this in the past and I pretend everything is ok, it heals faster - it almost tricks the body into thinking nothing is wrong.  (There’s something in that for life too…..)..

Ice, compression, gentle movement, bit of loving massage and not too bad a bruise but I do have a kankle…..!!!

My next thought turned to how am I going to train!!… I train pretty much every day and don’t really want time out, and also it’s just an ankle issue - I have a perfectly good rest of my body that can move.  I have had a few clients in the past have an injury and then think they can’t train.  There is always ways to train and ways round issues (well most of the time…)

Anyway, it left me in a predicament of how to train and get my cardio going given that I like to run and jump and skip…. not happening on a bust ankle.

I decided to don my weight vest and take the trx along to the park.  Why the weight vest?  Well it would make me work harder - 10kg extra on my torso to stomp my way along and pull up with.

It worked and wearing it to do the rest of my workout certainly upped the anti and it felt great and safe on my ankle.

That brings me this writing - I would normally train doing stair climbing/running …  well that’s not gonna happen is it!!  Impact is still a definite no go.

On with the weight vest again, and I frog marched my way to Fort Canning Park, up the “inclines” and the stairs - 2 blocks up, 3 blocks down and boy did I start to get a bit puffed out!  It felt awesome and the vest also made me stand better, I could feel my mid back muscles having to hold me up (they are a bit lazy)…

As I walked back to the Moving Body studio, it dawned on me how much it takes out of you when you are overweight, the extra strain on the muscles to hold you up and the heart to pump oxygen around. And that also applies to pregnancy, the extra effort and energy it takes for the body to carry the baby and all associated with it and provide the baby with energy to grow.  THEN mothers with the baby and carrying the child!..   I knew it but this was the first time I'd really EXPERIENCED it...

I know I added 10Kg in one go whereas weight gain (including pregnancy) is incremental but it did still really hit home to me the effect of excess weight on the effort I had to make.

Along my march back were a group of guys, tourists I am assuming as they were running to get the ‘hop on, hop off’ bus.  2 of them leading the way, 6 others behind and 2 stragglers,  The last 2 were slim young guys but were panting to keep up and they hadn’t run far.

I wondered when and why did we become a race where so many don’t move enough, are overweight, unfit and don’t know what to do about it…?
 
There are plenty of overweight people who exercise - please keep going, you're doing great...  unfortunately they are still at risk of all the diseases associated with being overweight, but a decreased risk. On the flip side, just because you are slim doesn’t equal fitness…. By fitness I am generally talking about the heart.

Is it a time thing, a lack of desire, a lack of enjoyment or don’t see the need, lack of education about food. budget, weather, the full moon - or a mixture of it all…. what is that initial oomph to just get going and then what keeps us going?

For me it’s been a part of my life for as long as I can remember and the bottom line is I feel better when I move and eat well.  Not to say I don’t enjoy lazy days and classically unhealthy food (apart form fast food places - you will never see me in there unless a gun is to my head…) - but I'd rather feel the way I do when I don't have those days.


Maybe what's more important is what can those of us in the industry, or partnered to someone who doesn’t move so much or friends etc - what can we do about it?  Is it even our business to try to get them to move!!!  Well as a personal trainer it is my business…. How do I do it to motivate not preach....??

This blog is not to provide answers but more to put it out, the thoughts that in my mind out loud which helps me.

It's there as a question in the hope that maybe someone reading this, maybe does start moving, or others get some inspirational ideas and maybe, just maybe we can work together for the world to be a fitter one?…

thanks!


As I was googling for images I came across this guy - good insights into what I’ve written about, and no I don't want to do the same thing....


edition.cnn.com/2012/06/05/health/drew-manning-fit2fat2fit-lessons/index.html


PS comments are welcome, or if you do want help getting going... it's my passion...

Hi all!!!

It's saturday which means it's #SessionSaturday ......  I'm getting to grips with these hash tags and all that jazz!!..

I received a comment that the sessions/routines I put together are aimed towards those who are already on the fitter side and possibly do Pilates already which is excellent feedback for me and most appreciated.

I will be starting to do some movement breakdown videos as well, the first next week - if there are any movements that you'd like me to do that for please please please be in touch, I am at your service!!...

I was considering going through twists for the spine as they are so vital for our bodies overall health..
Love to hear from you thanks!!
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Here is a spine moving workout for you...

You get to twist and turn and move about and wiggle and a little dance at the end!!!

Joseph Pilates said "You are only as old as your spine" and with all its joints and bones it needs a lot of movement which sadly sitting at a desk all day it doesn't get......

You may not be able to do this at work - but please do move as much as you can - especially your back, it deserves it!

Enjoy...

I love this video - the butterfly opens but has to dry it's wings first before it can fly - the process of opening up is not an easy one .....  2018 begins….

I don’t know about anyone else but I find myself looking back at 2017 and the lessons I learnt, things I discovered about myself and the world about me and how do I want to be in the coming years….
There was a quote that went:      
    2016 : caterpillar.
    2017 : cocoon
    2018 : butterfly (hence the video)...

Time to open the wings and fly and be all we all can be….


If you’re not in the mood to read all I've written, it's okay - here’s a weeeeeee summary of what I learnt last year.

1.    I started reading the news again, big step as it doesn’t get me down like it used to - I can read the news and not get pissed off!!!!.
2.    I went vegetarian again, my way of helping the planet and it sits right with my morals regarding factory farming - as much as I like the taste of meat, my morals weren't happy with me and that was more important.
3.    Stepping into and accepting my femininity !!! I know big one for me, as well as modelling through which I saw myself in a very different light.  If you wondered, I wasn't accepting this side of me hence why it was a great part of 2017.
4.    Love - loving myself and stating (out loud…) that I do want to be in a relationship really!! - I know!!! Big one huh?
5.    I started drawing more again and came up with hearts and flowers. Still a work in progress but I put my art out there! I may not be the best artist but I am an artist and I allowed myself to be open to feedback ( not just about art).  Total respect for artists (including singers, musicians, writers) who make a living from it, you have to be thick skinned!!
6.    Blogging and video blog - I’m pretty sure I’ve been consistent this year and then started my videoing movement - wooohooo, got used to seeing me on camera something I was a bit ugh about!  I've enjoyed way more than I thought I would!! and even embracing technology!
7.    Life and future…..what do I care about for my life and the world.  I’ve asked this one a lot over the past years, 2017 brought me to realising a few things including some of the above.....

These were in no order, just how it came out my mind into my fingers...

Here's all the words if you care to read more and I'd encourage you if I may to do the same - I think it's easy to forget what we have learnt and achieved through our lives and how we change over the years,  Doing this helped me see that I have come on in myself, how I approach life, where I want to go and where I am now - was pretty awesome and motivating.....



News: 

2017 was a year that I started getting interested in the world again and I began to read the news.  I am the proud opener of 4 news apps in an aim to get the most unbiased version possible.  I don’t read it every day, maybe every 3 days - which is way more than I’ve done for the last 15 years.

Why did I do this?  

It came from a few comments from friends, broadening my horizons to engage in conversations and also how can I be a citizen of the world if I have no idea what is going on anywhere.

I stopped reading it about 20 years ago as I found it depressing, and I would get angry about the state of the world.  Now I don’t - a huge step forward for me, I can read it now and go “okay so that is the state of the world and what is happening” - not “ I need to fix this, what can I do….?”. I’d still love the world to be a safer more connected place than it is - getting frustrated doesn’t help do that and all I can do is be part of where I am living…

From numerous documentaries recommended and happened across, my eyes have also been opened to how the political and religious worlds work - and in my mind how they are kinda full of BS.  I used to think money was evil - I know it’s not now at all, some people are evil and they can be poor or rich.  There are people in the world who are, on the whole, in it for their own gain at the detriment of others, it is our life and only we can live it, but not to purposefully or knowingly cause harm to another living being….. enough of that, but a change in mindset to money and the way to live has brought me new conclusions.


Vegetarianism

I decided to go veggie again - similar reasoning to the above, harming others…  If we  kept and killed animals humanely - no problem, but we don’t and until we do I will abstain from eating them.  Milk but mainly cheese are under consideration - but my values don’t allow me to be part of an agricultural system that does what it does.  Not going into that any more than that - feel free to watch many of the documentaries out there.


Being Feminine and love.

I also stepped into my feminity, something I had avoided - being ‘girlie’ was my idea of being feminine.  Then I met up with some guys who helped me see myself differently and one said I ought to model (semi-nudes) and my immediate was no way, then why not.  I did and I love it and it’s really helped me see myself in a new sexy, feminine way.  As with many of us I’ve not always liked the way I look and am great at criticising myself - yet I also know that I have a nice shape to my body and I’m attractive…  the demon voices of not good enough!  The modelling, wearing make up again, putting on high heels and nice lingerie (not all the time - I still love my scruffs and bare face!!) - and making that bit more of an effort have given me a new confidence in me as a woman.   I know that might sound odd but it’s the best way I can explain it.  Allowing a guy to open the door for me, yes it used to irk me - I am quite capable of opening doors for f***s sake - but now I like it.  I realised it doesn’t mean I can’t still be assertive, hold my own opinions, be heard and stand up for myself - I can be that and be feminine - how cool…
I also admitted to myself that I do want to be in a relationship, at my friend’s wedding the realisation became more real.  That’s not to say I’m not ok on my own, I get lonely but then you can be lonely in togetherness, but to share things with someone would be rather nice!  I have gone yes, no, yes, no over the years - fear of rejection, not finding someone, losing myself (which I allowed to happen in the past) - all I guess held me back from admitting the truth to myself.  I now sit in the space of yes, it would be lovely but I am not going to focus my attention on finding “the one” - the focus is on me being enough in my life and then well, we’ll see who shows up to join me!!!

Both of these were huge for me to realise and say out loud and now to blog about.  I was watching Brene Brown’s talk on vulnerability - a word I didn’t even use to like to say!!  How far I’ve come in the last year to 18 months…


Artist

I picked up my pencils again…  Hearts and flowers came about and will continue here and there.  It gives me the creative break that recharges me.  I had forgotten how much I loved to draw and colour and create and how it calms me… I also realise how much it takes to be an artist and have utmost respect for those who do it in all its forms - even those I really don’t get.  

And to those who start businesses - it takes a lot of effort and work and years to build a business, if the passion and desire weren’t there then it’ll never happen.  My art will tick over for the time being as it is hobby passion, and I have something in the pipeline to put out there soon….


Blog and writing

I have pretty consistently blogged and started my video blog too - a scary one to video me and movement and put it out there!  It’s been fun, more than I thought it was going to be!  I also got in to gear working on all the movement notes and ideas I have to create an online course of some description that is still in the making..  Lots to do on it that needs help from others and that’s the 2018 focus - yay I started to get focussed!!!


Where and doing what and who with.

The biggest questions I asked myself last year were what am I doing in life…. where am I going and what do I want.  I had a coach for a few months to help me get to grips with my want and I got closer to the end goal… When that will be I don’t know, but I Iearned more about me and what’s important. Being away over Christmas, I realised that it is who you know that matters, not the where in the world really.  Each country and continent has its pros and cons - but the people in our lives make the difference.  

I sat and thought about my life here in Singapore and it’s a pretty damn good one and I am forming deeper friendships and meeting more and more interesting people with similar values. It is up to me to make the effort to form the friendships that I want - all relationships take work.

I settled in 2017 into the studio more and have a great set of clients, I really do and I value that!.

However something was lacking overall for me though, was it the job, country, not enough close friends?  



No it was (is) me - all about me and how I see things.
Isn’t it always.!!!!
What lacked wasn’t what I wanted, in the back of my mind I’ve known what i want for a long time - basically a place/studio/cafe/retreat/homeawayfromhome/coaching space.  Why don’t I have it yet? - two reasons I feel, because it’s not for now I realised that the other day!, there’s other things to work on first and then because I haven’t done (all) the work on me.


As I walked the other morning I realised the question I needed to ask myself wasn’t “what do I want”  but  “what do I care about”….

I care about this planet and what we are doing to her.
I care for the lonely - young and old - I can only imagine what it feels like to really have no-one.
I care for all living beings, not just humans but all animals, insects, reptiles.
I care for freedom, of speech, expression and the ability to be oneself which I appreciate is not possible all over the world.
I care for adventure and seeing new places and meeting new people

I care to connect, hence my blogging I guess.  I babble away because I can, because I have a voice and what I write resonants with someone out there.  I may never know, but each word I type is also a connection to and with myself and then being brave enough for others to read my inner thoughts.

And I care about myself, who I am, how I live and how I go about the game of life. 


Forever learning.


2017 was a big year of learning about life and in myself I know I’ve shifted.  I still have a paranoid, anxious little voice that talks to me - and I welcome her so I can calm her down and move onwards….
    2016 : caterpillar.
    2017 : cocoon
    2018 : butterfly