Learning, it never stops and this learning relates to whether it is about life, our beliefs or our self as a mover… The ups and downs of learning about who you are, who you want to be, who you think you are vs how you are seen.  Perception vs reality from others.

I find it totally fascinating, the older I get and the more I allow myself to learn, the less I know, the more confused I sometimes become - and the more at peace with myself I feel.

The more I open up to others about my own insecurities, fears and concerns, the more it is returned and it is so beautiful to form these deeper friendships based on honesty and trust.




As I come to end of my 9 months on the Newfield course, the more I have grown into who I am - every time I coach there is another learning - every time I coach a movement session - again there is a lesson.  

It’s staying open to this learning.

Of course there are days when I don’t feel it, see it or sense it - where I am stuck in myself, listen to the negative voice - allow it to be louder than the other voice that I would be far better off hearing!  

How wonderful it is though to know that and know that is what happens and then find a way to stop it.  Recently that has been by reaching out to the people in my life.

It can be very easy to close down and shut the world out - and it’s sad to think that is an experience for many people - including myself in the past.

Every day is a new opportunity - every moment a choice of how to live and be in this world - and be all we can and want to be.

My learning curve has been up and down - flipped me on my head - spun me round - got me dizzy and I have loved every minute of it.  

Without it I would not be in a place where I can write what I do.

I sit in a place of not quite knowing where to take myself next and that’s ok.  What I do know is there are people who can help me in the places I have no idea what to do and I can do the same for them -  learning together.

Whether as a coach, coachee, student, teacher, giver, receiver, supporter or leader - I am so grateful for this journey into myself and others.

Can I ask you take a moment to consider the lessons you have learnt in your life journey so far, who from and the impact it has made on you. 

Maybe tell them……

Feel free to burst into song.

I actually just sat and listened to it and read the lyrics - pretty powerful, I never listened fully before.

Why this blog - because it is time for me to let go of some shit I’ve been carrying inside and is really not doing me any favours anymore!  It might have at some point in the past - protected me, kept me safe - but now - Nah… Now it’s a weight that I don’t want to carry.

It’s very easy to say “well just let it go” - wave a magic wand and poof its gone.  It doesn’t work like that - well not for me, nor for a few others I know and with whom I share stories.  Telling those stories though is a form of letting go and wow am I blessed with the friends I have that I can just blur it all out and offload with no fear of judgement and a total feeling of being loved - so special.

What I want to let go of is irrelevant, we all have stuff and we all let it go in different ways.  Right now I’m realising the more I talk about my emotions and let tears come, the more I am cleansed.  

All the experiences we’ve had have taught us something - and here I think about Inside Out and the memory orbs - how we chose to see those memories is up to us.  How we chose to have those experiences from the past affect us emotionally in the now - is again our choice.

I was swimming this morning and it really did dawn on me that I want to live a joyful life - be happy as much as possible - be in the moment - be with people I love - or if I’m alone, love being with me.

I appreciate this is again easy to say, it takes work and practise to stay in this space and there’ll be blips and wobbles (as another friend said!) - because we are human and we have feelings and how great is it to be a human being.!!!

I love my past - and from it I can see why I behave how I do sometimes, but it doesn’t mean I have to behave that way again.  

Every moment I am a new person, with a new choice to make - with a lot of stories to share that are both happy and sad - and they all make me, me.

Your stories make you - and take a moment to consider how great a person you are and if it hadn’t been for all the past you wouldn’t be you.  I know you might be going into “but I’m not a great person” - stop and find just one thing that is great about yourself, just one.  Each week keep it in mind and then add another to it - if all the stories from the past are pulling you back, one by one let it go and bring in a new story.  

It has been an amazing last few days for me - some huge realisations, some relationships deepened as I’ve let go and opened up and I sit here today with a smile on my face looking forward to each moment….

woooooohoooooooooo - must read this post myself as a reminder!!