What is it about it though, not knowing where life is taking us - job, relationship, country, health - is it inherent in human nature to want to know - to have the answers?
On this journey of coaching we came across enemies of learning - needing to know, it struck a chord. The desire to know the answer, know the reason why, have a more firm idea of what your life might be like, why you’re like you are.
When I’m training people in movement, I often have NO idea what is going on for them - I’m not their body so how can I? I can sense in myself - but it still doesn’t mean that I have the answer even for my own body. After many years trying to figure it out, I can now accept that I don’t know with respect to movement.
Life on the other hand…
Is their such a thing as fate - or do we make our own destiny - is there only so much we can do in our day to day that leads us one way, yet the universe has different ideas.?
I’m learning to live in this space of not knowing - have ideas, yes daydreaming I suppose, putting thoughts and requests into the atmosphere. It still requires me to go and do something about it though - simply saying it in a whisper doesn’t change things.
And that’s where I believe the fear in many of us starts - the what ifs…. If we fail, if we succeed, if we’re judged by others, disliked, liked too much, go bankrupt, have to admit we we ‘wrong’- so we end up playing safe and staying a little bit longer in the comfort zone, because we know where we’re at.
As I write, I’m not even sure I know where I’m heading with this - will it make sense to those reading it, does it matter if it does or not? The fear of posting my mental ramblings - what will people think of them?.. I don’t know.
I step outside my comfort zone - copy/paste - publish - simply writing about living in the space of no idea helps me to be here - be present in my life as it is - do what brings joy to my day and then - well who knows…..