And the journey keeps on - the path, not quite never ending, but no end as such in sight. Sometimes this thought freaks me out - other times I'm okay with it - what determines which way I go...
I started on a path of learning about me a long time ago - when I was born basically. Along the way I got lost in the thickness of the forest, stranded in the desert, floated in the sky and came crashing back down to earth with an almighty thud... There have been many a moment when I've felt on a merry go round that kept going faster and faster, not sure what was holding me in - other moments it was a roller coaster, with some seriously steep, laborious ups to be followed by an exhilarating down.
There have been some realisations that at the time, oh my god, I did not want to realise and found so hard to accept and a few I still do. Others I 'know' are me but then I'm also like 'really that's me?'. When I got my first puppy - when it was okay to smack them, I remember tapping him on the butt for misbehaving - he looked around in wonderment as if saying 'where the hell did that come from??" - that's how I've felt at times as my eyes have opened to “me”.
Through Basic and Advanced (loved) into the Leadership Program (no comment) onto Newfield Asia into coaching others - staffing the Basic and Advanced and now I am this weekend on Mastery.
It has been a full on year of realisations (see many previous posts).
And it's not stopping...
The process is not easy - it really has felt like I've been at the fairground with a lot of time spent in the haunted house whereas I'd much rather play on the bouncy castle!! Would I change a thing - no, and there's no point wanting otherwise because I can't anyway.
The human being is truly phenomenal - body, mind, emotion, thoughts and language - we are simply amazing. We have within us all the power to destroy or create; both ourselves and/or each other and the world around us - and which we chose is based on beliefs and experiences and how we see things. What do you chose?
If I hadn't begun my time at the fairground, I would not be in the place I am - and I am very glad to be in the place I am.
Wherever you are on your journey - be in it, whatever comes up - stay in whatever you are experiencing. I've run away many times - the saying "what you resist persists" yeah it's true!!.. No right no wrong, no good or bad, no true or false - it is what it is and what it is is perfect...
Yet again I need to reread my own writings at times...
I thank you for reading them.