My 2018 was full of change, eye opening experiences, more self learning and big changes to my life.
I have started a few blog posts recently and simply not finished them - obvious really seeing as you’ve not received anything from me!! It has not been due to lack of desire more some time restraints, a few moments of what do I want to say (and yes I do still have much to say) and also living in a place where the internet is slightly on the slow side and tests my patience…. (now resolved).
Moving to a remote resort island is a fascinating experience on many levels and at some point I will share some insights I’ve gained about people, life, money, service, community living and people. Did I say people twice? Yes on purpose - my learnings have really been the biggest around people and society and the last month I’ve been reading “The Laws of Human Nature” by Robert Green in a desire to understand more about me and why we do and behave as we do. Still not figured myself out which is great and I happily sit in the space of not knowing all about myself.
I also ponder that big question of what do I wish my life to be about - when I say goodbye to this amazing planet, what do I leave behind, how will I be remembered and what, if any, influence did I have for the betterment of all life on earth.
I’ve been looking more into the effect humans are having on earth, which is both good and sadly bad and most of all the “why should we even care”.. It doesn’t keep me up at night but it does bother me on various levels. I’ve read and discussed the point to life - it is just what it is and simply live. But live how and for what gain? I do think we all have a purpose and part to play in the grand scheme of things and it is our choice how we play the game.
I still find myself riled by small things, things that I hold on to for longer than is good for me-but I am realising it and breathing them out. Do I want to spend my time annoyed and wound up by actions that are outside of my control?
How do I behave to others, whatever their social standing and position is? I aim to be the same to all regardless but do not always achieve it. At times I have to hold my tongue (not bite it cause that’s painful) and not say what is really on my mind, not everyone wants to hear what I think and see….
I now start my break away from Bawah and am on an adventure to new places, to learn a new language, meet new people and experience others’ way of life - often very far removed from how I have lived for most of my life.
Again more blogs to write about this.
For now, I simply want to say hello, leave you with the above ramblings -
a small insight into my mind and future scribblings.
Thank you for your patience while I have not been blogging and I aim to write more again soon….