Oh sweet virus how you upset me so
You made my gut go crazy
A watery experience
I craved for nothing
All desires left me
My usual self was gone
And what was left was empty
Through our brief time together
I learnt so much
I learnt I didn’t need the crutches
Of alcohol
Of coffee
Of chocolate
Or the ‘social’ cigarette
I realised being in my own mind
Was quite a nice place to be
That stillness, the thing I fought for years
Was pleasant and comforting
That I could be hungry
And I would survive
That I had untapped resources inside
I had never gone deep enough to realise
As you slowly left my life
I almost miss you
Almost
I fear that temptation will arise
And you’re not there to help me resist
That my old ways will creep up upon me
And I’ll forget the lessons I learnt
But that is up to me
Without you in my life and body
I can still continue
Continue with the new ways I’ve discovered
Thanks to you
New ways that feel better
My body and mind feel clearer
My thoughts more positive
My emotions calmer
And my love for life
and myself renewed.
In Gratitude….
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