Great question… One of those moments of putting myself out there….
Now down to business, I have often read books and got to the bit where I have to do some soul searching and erm skipped it - I own up I don’t always do the work… (quick side note, not doing the work doesn’t get you anywhere). Well this time I did. She asked on page 188 to read the list of values she had put down and find the 2 that you aligned with…
out of about 60…
But yup just 2…. That’s what I thought too.
As recommended I reduced the list to about 10-15 and then saw some similarities between them and where I could join them together to be left with the 2 which when the going gets tough, I can remind myself of and they can give me the boost I need to carry on…
What did I come up with?
Make a Difference.
I have “struggled” with who I am, what I stand for (F-cubed was born from that question) and how to be in this world, accepting myself and allowing “me” to be out there. This blog is part of that journey. However sharing me in written words is relatively easy in comparison to sharing face to face or in a phone call with a friend - my closest friends know that too well.
You know those feelings you don’t want to have or admit to, but we have them and then OMG to tell someone that is what you are going through and feeling? No thanks. Way too much vulnerability (thanks again Brene for that work) and something I was not very comfortable with. Wasn’t comfortable, still not 100%. But the daft thing is, it is true that the minute you name it, it’s less scary.
Through self work, reading, chatting, coaching, practising and failing, getting mad at myself then calming down - I figured a few things out. Not everything but a few…
My trip to Yogyakarta was a turning point for me as well, temples have an interesting effect on me and visiting them there certainly made a difference to the way I see my current life.
Reading a little again about Buddhism has also shifted my perspective about life and it is what it is and not letting emotions control action. This had come up before - does your mind control you or you control your mind?…. I wasn't ready to hear it then, this time it sunk in.
I feel I was ready to do my values anew, and I then decided to draw them and pattern around and when finished they will appear on my wall as a reminder. And yes I do need a reminder - it is easy to forget. I’ll share with you next time my newest tattoo and why… yes I am keeping you in suspense….
I’m hoping Brene won't mind me sharing the list of values.